Last Post?

Hello everyone,

It’s September 13th. I feel that this will be my last post. I have nothing left.

This will appear on September 27th, whether I am alive or not.

I never thought I’d get married, and have a family.

Jane, I love you so much, I am so grateful. You still have the same beauty.
Valentina, our special girl, I love you so much.
Sebastian, our special boy, I love you so much.

Mum and dad, how cruel this is, I love you so much.

Friends and family, it was great. I love you all.
Carers and nurses, you kept me going, I love you.

I’d include a photo of Valentina, looking fantastic in her school uniform, but we don’t, brilliant French speaker.

A little story. Once upon a time, two boys started big school at the same time. It was Tuesday lunchtime in the second week. One of the boys, with glasses and quite small, was sitting alone on a bench, eating his packed lunch. The other boy, also alone and with his own packed lunch, saw the boy, and asked him if they could eat their lunch together. “He was a nice boy, mummy, he looked lonely, so I asked him, he lives on a farm”. This is Sebastian.
Come and sit on my bench on Lastingham Moor. I’ll be there.

With love,


Author: Andrew Knowlman

I am a 50-year old father of two children, married to Jane. I live in Hertfordshire, UK. I was diagnosed with Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis in April 2015.

5 thoughts on “Last Post?”

  1. Hi Andrew, I’m sorry you are feeling so low today, but I truly hope it’s not your last post and that you rally again. You are such an inspiration to Dan R. and me (his girlfriend, Marie). I’m sending you lots of positiveness to give your exhausted body some nourishing energy. I love your writing and am so grateful that you share these wonderful stories! Hang in there!

  2. Dear Andrew, I am happy to know you. We shared time and work experience in Turkey and I know so many things from you. So sorry to your health and current situation. I will always remember your smiles.

  3. Andrew, you are quite probably the bravest man I’ve ever known. You are a prince among man a child of the King of kings an mighty man of God. You have kept the faith until the end. I wish you peace, rest, and of course to keep a seat for me at the table of our Lord, where my hope is to see you again.

  4. You sound like you knew something was happening from your last post, wasn’t quite sure what to make of it…. and I wrote;

    You are choosing a hard life and hoping you gathered your diamond treasures from it in all the alchemy.

    Love to you as you expand into your transition whenever that will be.

    There will be loving beings there to meet you.

    It was good to meet you and know you through your last years and read all your writings.



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